Sad and glad. That is what I am as the commandments come to a close.
I am sad because for the past ten weeks I have been meditating on these "ten words" - one per week. Each one had something to give me. Each one showed me how to love God or my neighbor. They are more beautiful than I remember them. More loving. More practical. And yet so deeply spiritual. I'm going to miss them.
And I'm sad because I have missed the commandments, am missing them, and will always miss them. That is, miss the mark. As beautiful as they are, I begin to see only the ugliness of my sin. The longer I spend with them, the shorter I know I have fallen (Rom. 3:23). I feel sadness and fear to see myself as such a sinner.
But from the Close of the Commandments I see another word coming: Creed. How glad it makes me! How happily I will close the commandments and open the Creed, and discover the Trinity and all that God has done, is doing, and will do for me to rescue me from my sins!
What need I have for the Creed! It is the need that makes me sad, but the Creed that makes me glad!